It's so sad to see Remus thinking Sirius betrayed Lily and James, not that rat Wormtail .
So sad to think that Remus thought that Peter had been brave and loyal and junk like that. And that he thought Sirius was a coward and traitor and unworthy tings like that. When it was completely the oposite.
Poor Remus, having to live with the thought that one of his best friends had killed his own best friend to whom he had sworn loyalty by betraying that best friend and that another best friend had tried to stand up to the best friend who had supposedly killed the other best friend and that best friend who had been stand uped to had killed the best friend who had been standing up to him.
It wouldnt have been so bad if it hadnt been a best friend killing best friend thing. And poor Sirius. It all revolves around him having killed his other best friends, which is not true. It makes it all the more sadder.
You've portrayed all that well.
Antonia East Tuesday 20th February 2007 01:48
1: Remus (Author Response)
Thank you. It's always struck me that pretty much all of their lives were destroyed that night. Sirius gets shipped off to Azkaban, Peter spends the next twelve years as a rat, and Remus is alone thinking that Sirius has murdered three of his best friends. That's got to be destroying.
And it was rather frustrating to write Remus's feelings for Peter like that, but it is (I hope) what he would have felt at the time.
Wow. I am SO speechless right now. You've just convinced me to abandon all attempts at my own work.
This was positively amazing. Here are a few of my favorite lines:
He trailed off, unnerved by his own uncharacteristic outburst. An image of Sirius, the liveliest person he'd ever known, shackled, contained, imprisoned, swam before his eyes. He saw the man he'd believed to be his friend captured inside himself, being driven to insanity, as all inmates of the wizard prison eventually were, and was furious at the rush of sympathy and sadness that the picture produced. For the millionth time since it had happened, a fundamental part of himself rejected the idea that Sirius could have committed such an atrocity. He knew Sirius; Moony knew Padfoot.
This was so sad. I'm very partial to the idea of Remus thinking of Sirius in Azkaban and unwillingly feeling sorry for him.
But how could they be cast onto an inanimate slab of cold marble? They were not names and dates, but people, his friends, his only family. Where had their life forces gone? What had happened to the amused sparkle that shone in Lily's eyes? Could James's exasperating habit of running his hand through his hair just vanish with him?
I think that that's the most beautiful thing I've ever read in the history of MWPP fanfiction. These are amazing and thought-provoking questions. Especially the last one--it nearly made me cry.
Had Lily realised, as Voldemort pointed his wand at her, that she would die because of Sirius? Did James have time to work out that Sirius must have betrayed him?
I've always wondered that, except with Peter instead of Sirius. It's certainly a depressing thought.